Please Like Her 22 – Please, continue to choose her firmly.
On the other side, there was a magician standing on a high platform. When the fireworks ended, it was time for his performance. He loudly called for all the children to come over and join in the activity.
Xiao Mi was also drawn to it. After getting Shang Lu’s approval, she ran towards the magician.
Countless children gathered around the magician, watching as one paper crane after another flew out of his sleeves. The scene was very beautiful.
He displayed an apparently empty hat, and then it was filled with candies, which he showered down on the children below.
Laughter and joy filled the air everywhere.
Meanwhile, Shang Lu’s right hand was tightly held by Chi Yan.
Shang Lu had originally felt cold, but at this moment, she felt the warmth of his hand in hers, to the point of almost breaking into a sweat.
She knew very well it wasn’t the temperature; it was nervousness.
What did Chi Yan’s earlier statement mean?
Repeating such words over and over made it impossible for her to ignore them any longer.
She asked, “Will we spend every holiday together?”
Chi Yan’s voice carried a hint of a smile as he replied, “Yes, even Valentine’s Day.”
It was a declaration of love in every sense.
Shang Lu bit her lip, feeling the cold wind still blowing against her face, but her body, even her soul, felt like it was warming up.
However, she didn’t give a direct answer; instead, she asked, “When did it start?”
Chi Yan calmly replied, “High school, that time we ran away together. I felt there was no more interesting girl in the world than you, and I couldn’t help but keep watching you. I didn’t just want to be friends with you; it was love at first sight.”
Although he spoke in a calm tone, if Shang Lu had looked up, she would have seen that his ears were almost as red as if they were about to bleed.
But Shang Lu’s ears might be even redder than Chi Yan’s right now. Her face was burning, and she didn’t have the courage to look up.
Taking a deep breath, Shang Lu tried to sound composed as she said, “You never told me before.”
“I used to think that the best time hadn’t come yet,” Chi Yan replied. He added, “But if I didn’t tell you about my feelings for you, and you heard about it from someone else after today, I’d probably regret it for the rest of my life.”
This is someone else, naturally referring to his Mom who suddenly came.
So, unable to resist, he wrote down blessings related only to her in the red cloth bag. His feelings couldn’t be hidden any longer.
He lowered his head to look at Shang Lu and said, “Shang Lu, I like you, and I don’t want to be just your friend anymore. I want to become the most special presence by your side.”
Perhaps this was the confession Shang Lu had secretly longed for in her heart, but when Chi Yan actually spoke these words, she felt a bit awkward.
Chi Yan really liked her.
Not being friends meant becoming lovers.
If they became lovers, they should get married.
This made Shang Lu extremely anxious.
She might become a wife, a mother, a part of a family.
Faced with Chi Yan, she couldn’t refuse, and she didn’t know how to respond.
Chi Yan sensed her fear and reached out, covering her eyes, blocking her view.
This was an unspoken understanding between the two, allowing her a brief ‘escape’ from the world in front of her.
In the darkness, amidst the cheers and laughter of countless people around them, Shang Lu contemplated for a long time.
She said, “Chi Yan, I think I do like you.”
With this statement, the smile on Chi Yan’s face froze completely, and then he lowered his eyelashes and his face turned slightly red.
Shang Lu was a smart person. When that layer of ambiguity was pierced, she naturally understood her own feelings.
Being with Chi Yan had become a habit, she felt safe by his side, enjoyed his cooking, and missed him when they were apart for too long. Her attitude to him was different from how she treated others, and these were enough proof.
She understood it, and thus, became even more unsure.
She liked Chi Yan, and Chi Yan liked her.
Would Chi Yan always like her?
She didn’t want to be anxious, so her wish was for her to always be herself.
She hoped to live for herself forever.
But it was quite evident that Chi Yan had already taken up a significant place in her life.
She was afraid that if she entered into a romantic relationship with Chi Yan, she would become even more dependent on him and lose herself.
Even before they were together, she already had these worries, and they seemed overly melodramatic to her.
He softened his voice even more and asked, “Shang Lu, tell me, what are you really afraid of?”
Shang Lu slowly opened her mouth, pausing for a moment after every sentence. She spoke thoughtfully, “Chi Yan, I like you, but I’m afraid of the future, especially the possibility of starting a family and having children.”
She feared that a new nightmare would emerge, and the word ‘family’ represented the source of all suffering.
Upon hearing this response, Chi Yan’s tone noticeably rose with a hint of amusement. He sounded in good spirits as he said, “I didn’t expect you to have thought about life after marriage already. That’s good. We can just register our marriage first. I’ve mentioned it before; just one child, Xiao Mi, would be enough, and I can even undergo sterilization.”
Shang Lu shook her head slightly and said, “What I mean is, I will never have children in my lifetime. I can’t be a good mother, and I can’t become a good wife. I want to remain true to myself forever.”
Chi Yan’s voice remained nonchalant as he replied, “That’s alright. We don’t have to get married. We can just be lovers forever.”
It was hard not to be moved by his words.
Shang Lu raised her hand and removed Chi Yan’s hand covering her eyes, and he held her hand in return.
She whispered, “Chi Yan, I think you should be with the best person.”
He should be with someone more exceptional.
The moment those words left her lips, she regretted them.
Why did she start this again? It was the same last time.
Every time she faced affection, she found herself helpless, constantly denying herself and responding in the worst possible way.
But this time, there seemed to be a difference.
Because deep inside her, another voice was shouting at Chi Yan.
—Can he deny her words?
—Please, continue to choose her firmly.
Chi Yan lowered his head and placed his hands on her shoulders, looking into her eyes as he made a promise, “In my eyes, you are the best person in the world, and I only want to be the one who is most suitable for you. Whether it’s just lovers or marriage, you can always be yourself, and I can be just a Chi Yan who belongs only to Shang Lu.”
Shang Lu was taken aback.
She was certain that this time, it was her heart that was pounding.
She clearly felt her heart racing, but she still hadn’t agreed. Instead, she said, “Chi Yan, give me some time. I need to think about it, and you should too. When I come back next time, if you haven’t changed your mind, I’ll give you an answer.”
She likes Chi Yan, but she doesn’t want to make a hasty decision.
Most importantly, she wanted to give Chi Yan… time to reconsider.
Chi Yan said, “Alright, I’ll wait for you.”
Fireworks burst for the second time.
Chi Yan reached out and gently touched her head, asking, “Can I have a hug in advance?”
Before Shang Lu could respond, he reached out and embraced her tightly.
It is warm and reassuring.
She wants to stay in this moment forever.
Shang Lu raised her hand and gently hugged Chi Yan back.
With a hoarse voice, she said, “Chi Yan, meeting you, I have always felt very fortunate.”
In fact, not just Chi Yan, but everyone who is in her current life.
She felt a lot of love, and after being chosen time and time again, she also began to want to pursue love.
When she comes back, if Chi Yan doesn’t regret what he said today, she will promise to be with him.
Even if she doesn’t know the outcome, as long as he is firm enough when they love each other.
Then she also wants to go all in without hesitation.
Regardless of the future, just embrace him like this moment.
This is so cute 🥹
I could relate to her. I don’t know how to receive romantic affections and tend to push away even if I like them due to fear. Well, safe to say, I found my Chi Yan. ❤️
It’s cute but feels like something’s missing
damn I cried 😭😭
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